An Open Letter to Laguna Blanca School

By Karinna M. Carrillo

My name is Karinna M. Carrillo and I went to Laguna Blanca School for thirteen years. A private school nestled in Hope Ranch and Montecito– two of the most lavish neighborhoods in Santa Barbara, California. Montecito and Hope Ranch, where the average property value is estimated at over $2 million. 

My dad was the school’s janitor. I grew up knowing that he was coming home from work late, tired, and probably sad. He stayed working there because he wanted to give his kids an education that would endow them with an opportunity for better than what he had. At the time, Laguna provided its workers with the opportunity for tuition remission for their children. This is how my sister, brother, and I were able to attend the school with an average annual tuition higher than California’s own public universities. My siblings and I probably made up half the school’s then “diversity”. There was also my cousin, and three Black students; that was it for the school of under 400. We were the financial aid kids, the not-white kids, and the janitor’s kids;  I knew this from as young as I can remember. 

Unlike the public schools in our district, at Laguna, we had to pay for everything–our books, our lunch, and our very expensive, navy blue, white, and red uniforms. I recall my classmates arriving with the brightest white button downs and being envious of the girls who were lucky enough to own trousers, skorts, and dresses. My siblings and I typically had what Sears had in stock. We arrived to campus with the best our family could afford. Soon enough though, I remember receiving a letter that we should be certain to only wear clothing that included our school’s emblem and were from Lands’ End’s magazine. They didn’t ask if we were OK or needed support. That was the beginning. 

Before owning a home computer, my sister and I used the ones in the faculty room while my dad worked.  Again, my family received a letter asking all workers to stop bringing children to work to use school computers. There was no personal inquiry regarding your students’ wellbeing or ability to access resources. No inquiry regarding your staff’s ability to provide childcare. Laguna didn’t see race, they didn’t see class. They never asked. Almost as if mentioning the words would imply offense. “Community,” they proclaimed, but “unity” there never was. 

By sophomore year, I was well aware of class differences between my classmates and me. The problem was that my sister and I went to school with some of the country’s 1%, and Laguna did nothing to support the students who weren’t. Students whose parents were surgeons and CEOs; students whose parents never worked, but were wealthier than I ever knew. We went to school with families who owned islands, lived near Oprah, inherited chewing gum companies–that type of generational wealth that isn’t seen with Black, Indigenous, or People of Color because systemically, it wasn’t meant for us. 

My sophomore year, hiring private college counselors was all that anyone was talking about. Meanwhile, I was just learning what the SAT was. I was a first generation student, but Laguna didn’t see these differences, and they definitely didn’t act to instill any sense of equity on campus. So I missed class trips and went without certain textbooks because of financial barriers. My dad worked side jobs for a Laguna teacher and in exchange she agreed to review my college essays. To my surprise, however, when my parents and I visited Laguna’s college counselor, he advised that due to our likely need of financial aid, I should probably just consider attending the city college. He did not once refer to programs for minority students, advise on any scholarships, or acknowledge my academic excellence. To him, and by extension, Laguna Blanca, I was different and didn’t measure up to the students whose parents paid for the school gala or new gymnasium. To him and Laguna Blanca, I wasn’t worth their time. That same year they took away staff tuition benefits. White faculty only. 

I went on to graduate from the University of Southern California with a merit scholarship and currently attend Columbia University with a merit scholarship for my academic achievement and leadership in public health. Everyday, I work to advance the health and wellbeing of low-income communities and communities of color and know now just how valuable the experiences during the formative years of a child are. 

Laguna Blanca School is not built to support students of color, marginalized students, students from working families, or immigrant students. It exists to support the wealthy, privileged, and white. 

You’ve posted the black square. You’ve proclaimed student diversity. As a student who represents a likely very high percentage of your school’s historical diversity, hear my demands: 

1. Hire Black, Indigenous, and POC (BIPOC) educators. I did not have one Black teacher. I grew up never seeing a teacher who looked like me nor my parents let alone one who acknowledged my ethnicity. Hire them and not just as your custodial staff. Hire BIPOC and give them positions of leadership. Put them on your board, make them your president. 

2. Establish a Diversity, Equity, and Inclusion Taskforce. This taskforce should exist to ensure the success and safety of BIPOC students, faculty, and staff. 

3. Create a Diversity, Equity and Inclusion Officer. Add this officer to your board of trustees who exist to ensure the school is accomplishing its mission and upholding its core values of scholarship, character, balance, and community. The current board of trustees serves as counsel and guidance, however, the positions are filled by some of the most wealthy parents and alumni. 

4. Commit to the advancement and success of your BIPOC and low-income students. Hire staff who are invested in supporting students of color. Ensure your BIPOC students have all of the resources they need to succeed. 

5. Facilitate discussions and create space for your BIPOC students, staff, faculty, and allies. Racism is real; classism is real; xenophobia is real. Not discussing it does not make it go away. Talk about the issues our world is grappling with. Host community conversations and education surrounding how to be an ally. 

6. Create a community advisory board for the Hope Ranch Patrol. The advisory board should review racial and identity profiling, partnerships with the larger Santa Barbara Police Department (SBPD), officer training, and disciplinary matters. This advisory board should release significant findings and advancements to the school community. 

7. Acknowledge your own Anti-Blackness. The only way forward is for all to recognize the role we’ve played in White Supremacy. Laguna Blanca School must recognize how it, as an institution, is deeply intertwined was created to support white people and not communities of color, but will work to dismantle our racist past. 

8. Pledge to financial responsibility. The school should commit to financial donations to organizations like Black Lives Matter and additional resources for its BIPOC and low-income students. 

Sincerely, 

Karinna M. Carrillo
Laguna Blanca School Class of 2013


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  1. No one in the US thinks they are racist. Ask a White Supremacist, and they will say they only want to promote their own race. I come from a “white” middle class family, both my parents had professional parents and they all went to college, even back in the 20s when not that many people did. My sisters and I are solidly middle class and own homes and have decent healthcare. I’m sure our success is all due to our individual efforts and has nothing to do with our background and ethnicity. Hah.

  2. “Angry white men”. Please give this exhausted trope a rest. All white men are not “angry”. All white men are not “racists”. Anybody of any color is not “all anything”. People have expressed views here on Edhat. You can agree or disagree with them but you should not dismiss them as ‘invalid’ by claiming they originate from a source you imagine. Until this kind of racism stops we are never going to make things better. Please, please, stop with this race baiting. It helps nobody.

  3. I love all the commenters saying this has nothing to do with race or ethnicity, even though the writer says it is. Wonder what race/ethnicity all these commenters are? Hmmm… hahah. Except the one dude saying he’s from German immigrants which apparently to him is the same as being a person of color? haha

  4. SBOBSERVER so true. This came across a posting on another page just now: For those who now consider Itailian-Americans “white”–understand it wasn’t always so. The largest mass lynching in U.S. history took place in New Orleans in 1891 and it wasn’t African-Americans who were lynched, as many of us might assume. It was Italian-Americans. . After nine Italians were tried and found not guilty of murdering New Orleans Police Chief David Hennessy, a mob dragged them from the jail, along with two other Italians being held on unrelated charges, and lynched them all. The lynchings were followed by mass arrests of Italian immigrants throughout New Orleans, and waves of attacks against Italians nationwide. What was the reaction of our country’s leaders to these lynchings? Teddy Roosevelt, not yet president, famously said it was “a rather good thing.” The response in The New York Times on March 16, 1891 referred to the victims of the lynchings as “… sneaking and cowardly Sicilians, the descendants of bandits and assassins.” An editorial the next day argued that: “Lynch law was the only course open to the people of New Orleans. …” John Parker, who helped organize the lynch mob, later went on to be governor of Louisiana. In 1911, he said of Italians that they were “just a little worse than the Negro, being if anything filthier in [their] habits, lawless, and treacherous.”

  5. @Bigman, please say you’re not seriously comparing the plight of Sicilians to those of people of color? African Americans and Natives have been killed, lynched, and murdered at far greater rates by white people in this country than this one anecdotal story.

  6. I checked out the ad that Laguna put in a local paper listing all the colleges their students that accepted their students . If SBHS, SMHS, and DPHS had done the same thing, I bet their lists would have included even more impressive college acceptances. I was surprised that LB did not have any Ivy League schools, UCs, etc. . Yes, some reputable ones but our public school graduates do as well or, I would argue, better. I would also argue that a child going to a local public school will get a top quality education with full parent/home involvement. Not helicoptering but knowing what their student is doing every day (just ask the child) and participating in PTA, etc. Make sure your school has the highest standards…..for all levels of learners. And vouchers do nothing but take money away from our public schools…..with very little oversight and not the best educational standards in place.

  7. 1:40 pm, Bigman was just giving us a bit of history. It’s not a competition of “Who got lynched more.” I took it as more of a comment on how foolish we are to make evil judgments about people based on their race or ethnicity, and how these judgements change over time.

  8. Holy smokes! The opponents of equal rights are out in force here today! I tried to explain what white privilege is and how it applies to the comments and get slaughtered here! If you refuse to even consider that we, as white people, will ALWAYS have an easier time in life than people of color, then you’re pretty much as bad as a card carrying racist. Just THINK about it before you start stomping your feet and crying about it.

  9. 11:16
    “I cannot understand this writer’s world view.” Yes – it is hard for some to understand white privilege and have zero understanding of challenges that minorities face. Two things can be true at the same time – the writer received a free education and experienced issues related to class and race at the same time.

  10. Great for Karina for getting a wonderful education. That education will likely set her up for future success that will, in turn, provide opportunities for her family that her parents didn’t have. This is the cycle that will help level the playing field. What I’m hearing isn’t that LB and other schools aren’t working for minorities (obviously it worked for her), it’s that the progress isn’t moving fast enough to her liking. Just 50 years ago I would bet she would have never had that opportunity. While I can admire and respect the changes BLM and other activists are demanding, people need to realize that these changes take generations and we have made progress over the years. Rather than blasting LB (the very institution that deserves credit for her future success), she needs to be thanking her parents for making huge sacrifices to get her the best education.

  11. PDW – “she’s literally had it easier than just about everyone” – Yeah, that would make sense unless you READ THE ARTICLE. Her father was a janitor, they had no money for uniforms, or even a computer. Yeah, she had help with tuition, but only because her father worked at the school. It’s easy and lazy to say “oh, they got free tuition so they are more privileged than poor old me,” but it’s completely missing the point. People of color don’t have the same advantages as white people. If you can’t realize and understand that, then you never will be able to fully empathize with others.

  12. It should be noted that, if three siblings attend that school on a full scholarship for 13 years each, they receive over $1.1 Million in financial aid during that time. As someone who was in the student body slightly later, I hope this fellow graduate did her homework. When I graduated, our Head of high school was a black woman and our junior high director was a man of Asian descent. My friends on financial aid got to go on all of the academic trips we took to Europe and New York. The college counseling was amazing (I think the new college counselor has been there 5 years). It seemed like the school was doing a lot to try to become more diverse.

  13. I just looked. They have a kid going to CALTECH (hardest school in the country to get into) and a few kids going to UCLA and Berkeley, so there are UCs. Maybe you saw another year? And since when is a college acceptance list the measure of a school? What about just being better-suited in a smaller school environment? Agree on quality available in publics though. Just a matter of navigating the system, which is tough for lots of kids.

  14. Perhaps instead of getting defensive and trying to prove she’s wrong, acknowledge that she had a very different experience from you and your perceptions of this school are shaped from your own experiences, just as hers are.

  15. Her feelings are certainly real and valid. I’m not trying to prove her wrong; I think she’s awesome for writing this. But our leaders when I was a student were people of color and the school did not spare any expense as far as providing for financial aid students to make it equitable. I graduated later though, so maybe the school just changed a lot from when she was there.

  16. Awesome piece of writing, and congratulations on your grit to overcome the racial/class obstacles to attend USC/Columbia. I bet you made your family proud, and I hope your essay has an impact. Also congratulations to your father, for his self-sacrifice to help you with your path forward. I am proud of you!

  17. Great letter. Thank you! I’m a white male whose kids were able to attend Laguna Blanca. The education was very good (for the most part). However, when you repeatedly hear kids who are 13 or 14 making racist comments, you start to wonder about what values are being taught at home. We constantly had family discussions about values and choices.
    From my perspective, there were many fine families, but some who were worse than obnoxious. The faculty was good; however, the administration was beholden to the wealthy families who bankrolled the school and had little integrity.
    The few students of color were paraded out on school brochures to give the illusion of inclusiveness.
    I’m glad my kids went there, but I am also glad they moved on, expanded their universes, and survived that culture.

  18. How ungrateful that she’s complaining that she got a 98% discount but should have gotten 100% and then some. As a poor mixed race girl this letter makes me kind of sick. I guess once you’ve been given so much for free you lose touch with reality? I try my hardest not to accept handouts but when I have to I don’t complain that it wasn’t enough.

  19. What I am sensitive to in this controversy is that the author seems to have no self awareness that she got what public school children are denied. It would be great if she pointed out that private schools like this are anathema to the American ideal of equality. I don’t think she is about to reject her new found advantages. We need to recreate the idea of public education as a promoter of all. She should be arguing for the funding of public schools instead of quailing about the perceived failures of her advantaged education.

  20. 420722 – she’s not complaining that she didn’t get 100% tuition assistance, she’s asking for the school to do more for OTHERS in her situation. She’s asking for measures to be taken to ensure EQUALITY. She’s not demanding any further benefits for herself. Did you bother reading the actual letter, or just see some simple comments and chime in to complain because you, a “mixed race girl,” don’t take handouts for yourself (thereby also missing the point completely)? Which is it?

  21. Karinna,
    Your parents did everything they could to get you a great education, what an amazing blessing. I am delighted to see you embraced your education and have been successful.
    There are resources in Santa Barbara that perhaps you and your parents were not aware of such as computers for families, who would have given you a computer. I also would wager if you would have asked one of your teachers they would have helped to get you a computer and books.
    While education is very important, learning to advocate for yourself is equally important. Maybe those letters and notices were directed to you, but there is always someone that is willing to help. You might need to ask 10 different people but you will find them.

  22. Shading the author is despicable. This is just what this revolution is about – not cowering to an angry entitled white who finds it necessary to tells minorities how they should feel. The country is ready for immediate, sustainable change and some of you are going to get left in the dirt and the wrong side of history.

  23. “…he advised that due to our likely need of financial aid, I should probably just consider attending the city college”.
    As one who was raised on limited financial means and did attend SBCC (among other colleges), I resent the backhanded insult to this institution. I would hold that the education ‘available’ at city college is comparable to the first two years of any major college. Note that I said ‘available’ in that the learning is truly up to the student no matter what college they attend. Certainly nobody has to pretend to be on the rowing team to attend SBCC but contend that does not make their educational value less than USC.

  24. Trying to not comment…am white…had so many bible thumpers, and the Gate folks, at La Colina, trying to keep a hush , hush, group..when I moved here, years ago…didn’t
    know what to think…not Laguna, but still was
    not inclusive…

  25. The writer did get to USC and then Columbia so it looks like Laguna served her very well. That’s about $500,000 worth of education between the three schools that presumably she or her family did not have to pay for.

  26. Oh give me a break and stop playing the victim. This is an expensive PRIVATE school. Meaning you can either afford to attend or you can’t. If you can’t afford the uniforms, don’t go. If you can’t afford the class trips, don’t go. You are not entitled to a private school education.

  27. My problem with this impassioned and essentially valid criticism is that the author does not complain about the very concept that allows such private schools. Their existence is the main reason public schools are underfunded in most communities. Look, for example, at Montecito Union elementary’s resources as compared to those of SBUSD. If the public school contains wealthy kids it is supported. If it serves others it is not and private schools appear for the affluent. Her proposal seems only to perpetuate that school as an elitist venue which now would include more Blacks and Hispanics.

  28. I do agree that private schools are, unfortunately, able to do whatever they want in some regards based on who they admit. However, the majority of these commenters are overlooking the fact that she was a student at this school and was treated unfairly because of her race/ethnicity. That is the bigger issue here. If Laguna Blanca admits a student, they must treat them fairly regardless of income. Telling her they couldn’t use the computer? That’s ridiculous and shameful. If students are admitted from different economic backgrounds, be more sensitive. If you don’t want to be more sensitive, don’t admit them in the first place and continue living in your white affluent bubble and STOP promoting “diversity”

  29. Treated unfairly b/c of race/ethnicity, or because of wealth? I went to a public school and there were kids who couldn’t afford all of the field trips, and there were still disadvantages between those whose parents could afford certain things and those who couldn’t.

  30. Seems like the school was very tone deaf on these issues, probably because they didn’t come up very often. Let’s hope they do better in the future, because it doesn’t serve their students well to be so segregated from the melting pot that is the US.

  31. What point? That it’s a private school that can chose who they admit? If you go to a public school that doesn’t happen. Everyone is admitted regardless of financial background. And even then, there are disparities between kids from affluent families versus less affluent. Hence the school lunches and the like. A private school, by it’s very nature, is not required to provide for all students regardless of financial means.

  32. It’s not about being sensitive. It’s about math. If going to this school is not within your budget, then you don’t go. There was no unfair treatment because of her race/ethnicity. Unless other students were allowed to use the school computers and she wasn’t. Which doesn’t seem to be the case since she stated herself that “…my family received a letter asking all workers to stop bringing children to work to use school computers.” Key words being “all workers”.

  33. People seem to be missing the point. it is very easy to say that she should leave the school if she cannot afford the tuition. The problem is that once she was accepted to the school, the administration repeatedly failed to provide an equitable educational experience. The student was not treated fairly due to her background, including her race. Unfortunately socioeconomic status in this country is a proxy for race. They go hand in hand. A school is responsible to understand and assist the student to overcome barriers where necessary. Additionally , the author is now using her education and platform to make the experience of future students better. So I fail to understand why people are so defensive of a more equitable experience for all students.

  34. Exactly right RSSB72. The fact that she is in a minority group and was admitted show lack of discrimination. Presumably the computer situation applied to “all” as you point out, not just minority workers or their kids. My parents initially wanted to send me to a private school but couldn’t afford it and in the end I am grateful I went to a public school. I would have hated being around most of those kids anyway. I avoid Montecito for similar reasons. I wouldn’t move there then complain it was full of snooty rich white people.

  35. Karinna Carrillo, thank you for being brave enough to hold up this mirror. If nothing else, you will have caused some very important discussions today. You aren’t saying anything surprising–but you have the guts to say it out loud. Thank you for this profile in courage.

  36. My wife and I work 40 and sometimes up to 60 hours a week to pay the mortgage on our home, health insurance, taxes, both local and federal, car payments, living expenses, etc. I am now going into debt to send my first kid to college because “privileged” middle class people like us don’t get financial aid from colleges for our kids. I lay awake at night wondering how we will pay for the other two? We don’t get free health care. (Ours is $2,500 per month). We don’t get free computers, clothes, books…
    Why does this writer think she should have gotten more than the free excellent education she was handed? I would LOVE for my kids to have gone to 13 years of private school for free. I would love for my kids to someday go to USC and Columbia but there is NO WAY we could ever afford these private colleges as a middle class family. Maybe I should have become a janitor instead of an accountant? Then all three of my kids could have afforded to go to USC and Columbia. I just cannot understand this writer’s world view.

  37. JT that really is the bigger issue isn’t it? I mean, the area served by this school is predominantly non-minority. Why is it that every “lavish” area of SB, as this author refers to, has so few minorities? Also, even in a public school system it is not unusual for the boards of those schools to be predominately wealthy, non-minorities – most people have to work and the ones who serve on these boards often have time to do it b/c they may be wealthy and have the time/resources to do it. It almost sounds like she’s advocating for abolishing private schools all-together. They don’ have to cater to all students like a public school does. I don’t see that happening any time soon given the state of our public school system.

  38. Talk about entitlement!!!!! She got a free education at the best school in the area, which put her on a path to get a great (FREE!) education at two more great schools (USC and Columbia). This is the very definition of tone deaf entitlement. She got more than just about any/all kids growing up in Santa Barbara…but she demands more…and more…and more. She wants the tuition to go up at Laguna Blanca, how else to afford additional staff and teachers that meet her criteria and demands and make donations to groups of her choosing. We’ve done a wild disservice to our youth…we’ve convinced them that they are special, and amazing and need to be heard on anything and everything that they have a thought about. Youth truly is wasted on the young.

  39. Coraline and RSSB – It’s not only clear you both don’t get it, but you’re aggressively unable to open your mind to see how people of color are mistreated in our local community and beyond. Your comments are best kept inside your white privilege and white fragility bubble.

  40. Yikes, so much ignorance in this post. “I just cannot understand this writer’s world view.” Exactly, you cannot. As a white man (seems obvious), you have no concept of the type of privilege you and your children were born with, just by existing. This writer has had to work really really hard through a ton of obstacles that you aren’t even capable of understanding to get where she is. All she’s advocating for is leveling the playing field for people of color. As a side note, no one said your kids had to go to college. They could go to trade school, take out loans, get a job, go to community college, etc etc etc.

  41. I have zero white privilege. My family immigrated here and I am 1st generation. They were poor, treated poorly AND discriminated against. We survived and thrived regardless. My parents would have loved to send me to private school but couldn’t afford it and didn’t qualify for any assistance due to not being in defined minority groups. I worked for everything I have, so did my family. We didn’t get free tuition anywhere. As a result I am grateful for everything they struggled to provide me. Not bitter. I think those who need to check their privilege at the door are those who feel guilty and as a result, put up black squares and signs in order to assuage that guilt. All the while they don’t get it.

  42. I am happy for Ms. Carrillo that she has been so successful in her higher education and her commitment to serve. I hope she comes back home. I grew up here and am now a senior citizen. I have been friends with private school students and now Parents of private school students all my life. I would never send my child to a private school because it is an artificial environment and most of them come out weird. That opinion is the product of over 50 years of local observation. People do not send their children to Laguna for “diversity”. Just the opposite. They do not want their children in our local public schools that today are 67% Latino and over 50% low income. Can’t blame them if they can afford it but that is our real world. Why should Laguna care? It is the Parents’ job to teach their private school children how to cope with the real world. Why would Laguna change for 6 students? Parents at Laguna can vote with their pocket books. If they don’t like the approach at Laguna today they can go someplace else. Attendance at Laguna has always been most directly tied to the state of the economy. I am actually surprised that some Laguna Parents didn’t step up for this family. I know several families there and I expect that if they knew, they would have gladly taken care of uniforms and computers. These are the “upper” 1% and they can afford anything in that realm.

  43. Laguna Blanca is doing their students a disservice by not allowing more diversity into their school program. Their affluent white students will benefit greatly by connecting and learning from peers with different backgrounds.

  44. We all tend to interpret and frame our own actions in the best possible lens. It’s telling though that she was angry that her parents were sent a letter asking workers to stop bringing kids to school after school hours to use the computer. Some here are seemingly interpreting that as racism. But might a more logical reading be that the school rightly didn’t really appreciate workers having their kids with them during their evening work and simply couldn’t allow unsupervised children using school property outside of school hours? And what an interesting throwaway line she has in there ” Laguna didn’t see race, they didn’t see class. ”

  45. Well now that is the problem isn’t it. Make a primary school so expensive that only white privileged children can attend. It’s not about math, it’s about parents not wanting their kids to go to school with poor children or people of color. Not sure if you’ve been to Hope Ranch but spoiler alert it’s all rich white people.
    Yes they gave her a free tuition (although not books, uniforms, field trips, etc…) but they did not provide a support system for her because that is not Laguna Blanca’s MO. They don’t want to provide opportunities for poor people or those of color because they know why parents place their kids there.
    Your comment on key workers being “all workers” says what? That the school turned a blind eye in regards to her not having the resources the succeed.
    There are several problems I see with how the education system is setup. Unfortunately Laguna Blanca has no incentive to make the changes that she suggested.

  46. Is this a discussion about mistreatment in the community, or is it about perceived slight due to a person’s ethnicity when the reality is the slight is imagined. The faculty computer is not a student computer. The clothes with the logo are to be worn by all students, not just some. The third party counselors can be hired by anyone who can pay them. You people with your “trophies for everyone” are the ones missing the point: there are things that you can’t afford, and things you can. Live within your means. If you can’t, then go make more money like anyone else would have to. If you’re fortunate enough to get tuition free education at a private institution, enjoy it instead of demanding more. If you want more, work for it.

  47. Ah yes. It was only a matter of time before someone threw those words at me for my comments. Tell you what, if Laguna Blanca ever turns away a family that can afford their tuition, and does not accept them simply because they are not white, then you can come at me. Until then, this is about finances, not race.

  48. Ahahah @ Coraline. Let me translate your post: “I have zero white privilege so allow me, a white person, to contradict myself by saying all the hard things I’ve had to go through in this life by being white.” hahahah read a book.

  49. SBREADER you mention ‘if they knew, they would have gladly taken care of uniforms and computers.’ I agree. I went through Laguna as a white kid on scholarship. There were alot of discrepancies between me and the other kids – i.e. the ski trips, huge homes, etc. that I’d never experience. But I never assumed I should, because I knew my family’s financial status. The ratio of teachers to students is amazing (my class in the 70s had 8 kids. Total!) But even then I slid through the cracks due to clinical depression and my family falling apart. No one knew. I ended up attempting suicide at 16 and looking back, I wondered, how could they not know something was very wrong??? Because I didn’t tell them.

  50. Clearly there are only about 4 white people commenting over and over again (PDW, Coraline, Ides, and an anon) upset because they had to work “really really hard” for everything they got. And they’re upset that someone is calling out the inequities of not only SB but America in general. Somehow these types of white people are scared that by saying the system is rigged against people of color it will take away their accomplishments? No Johns and Nicks, you can still have your sob story of growing up “poor,” it doesn’t change the fact that the world was built for you to still do better than people of color. Continue your downvotes and anger over what.. equality?

  51. Looks like many changes since this approx. 2000-2013 timeframe.
    Appears that Laguna has a new head of school, college counselor, and new heads of upper, lower, and middle. The head of upper school is a BIPOC woman.
    They currently have computer labs at all LBS schools that students can use. Typically, most middle/HS schools don’t allow students in faculty rooms as teachers need their own space.
    Today’s California schools have extensive teacher discussions on social justice.
    If the school provided, 12 years of tuition, (at approx. $30K), for three family members, that is at least $500K in 2020 dollars.
    Personally, I am both moved and impressed by this former student’s accomplishments. (culminating in an Ivy league grad school).
    Also, for her father’s role in making these dreams come true.
    However, she should acknowledge that it was also the school and other parents that helped substantially.

  52. CJ do you not understand the problem if the boards are predominately wealthy white people. Rich white people have different experiences s as minorities and therefore cannot accommodate for all students. You fail to understand that for long enough these wealthy white people have benefited from schools like this long enough.

  53. Why do you assume that the comments you disapprove of are from white people? Do you think all people of certain skin colors think alike? That is so racist. You don’t have to agree with what others are saying but it seems misguided to simply dismiss points of view you disagree with by assuming these views must come from “whites” or “men” or “rednecks”, etc. Move out of your bubble! Plenty of good people of all races and classes don’t actually agree with you either. That’s what it means to live in a democracy.

  54. 11:48 – Thank you for calling them out. All these angry posters complaining of “entitlement,” are the same white people complaining that just because they were poor, they didn’t have white privilege. I used to be one of those! What they fail to understand it, regardless of her getting an education, it was still MUCH harder for her than her white classmates to get to where they are. Just because a minority gets a free education doesn’t mean there’s no more racism. We, as white people, will ALWAYS have a leg up on minorities because of the system we have created. Own it and accept it, don’t fight against equality – it’s a bad look on us.

  55. The white, so called liberal parents in SB and Goleta are “white-flighter’s” when it comes to what school their kids attend… I worked with many who sent their kids to private or cheated the system to send them to Mountain View or Catholic Schools …. It’s called being a Santa Barbara Liberal Hypocite- Unfortunate, but so true…

  56. No public school voucher system is going to cover private school costs like Laguna Blanca. Maybe at a large Catholic School. They’ve had the voucher system in LA in the guise of Charter Schools for a while now. Has that helped raise test scores across the District?

  57. Was it though? She’s had literally the best education money can buy for FREE since Kindergarden and all the way up through Columbia…she’s literally had it easier than just about everyone. And again, I’m assuming that most people on Edhat live in Santa Barbara and Goleta, so all of us are quite privileged no matter what race we are…we all hit the jackpot to live here…

  58. Maybe she can use the fantastic educational opportunities given to her by others and get a lucrative career and then set up a scholarship fund to assist economically disadvantaged students for the school. Pay it forward to achieve the changes you want.

  59. Re read the article. Nowhere does it say that her education at Laguna was free. She says, “At the time, Laguna provided its workers with the opportunity for tuition remission for their children. ” Even at a lower tuition, the cost may have been a heavy burden for a working class family.

  60. There are so many things wrong with this rant from this now 25 year old.
    The slant that is taken is that the school was white privilege, only rich white kids and against minorities. That is complete and utter nonsense. I am a parent of a student that was there, in high school at the same time as the author of this letter. Guess what . . . we received financial aid . . . as white people! I do not think I can disclose the amount that we received, but needless to say, we paid well less than 1/2 of the normal tuition. We didn’t get a free ride. Yes, textbooks are expensive. This is not a Laguna issue, this is a textbook cost issue. I am sure that the textbooks at USC and Columbia are just as expensive. However, we were able to RENT them for a nominal fee. I think we spent about $50 to $75 per semester on rentals.
    I think that you are barking up the wrong tree. Laguna is not a racist school. Laguna is not a privileged school. Laguna reflects fairly closely, the local community in private schools. Laguna by being a private school does NOT have to accept anyone and everyone. You obviously are an intelligent woman. They saw something in you and you did well in that system. I would suggest that you argue that MORE of the Laguna system be used in the public arena. Perhaps we, as a society, would get more intelligent people.
    I would strongly suggest that all the things that you see wrong in society are not the result of Laguna. I’d suggest that you remember Paradis’ teaching.

  61. Interesting and well written letter. I suppose your experience is as old as education itself. One could exchange your experience for many from the past and the present. All lineages, races, creeds, religions or castes, throughout history, have a similar tale to tell. —- The one line that stuck out for me was “Laguna Blanca School is not built to support students of color, marginalized students, students from working families.” This is correct and is the cold hard truth of the matter. All private schools cater to a particular demographic. Please know that this exclusion exists in every country, in every culture, around the world. Its human nature more than some American cultural bias. After all money is colorblind. There are wealthy in every land and every culture and yet, each suffers from the same problems. Life aint fair but it seems that you’re kicking its butt. Congratulations on your success. May it continue.

  62. Thank you Karinna for your thoughtful letter. You clearly make some valid points about the various inequities that exist at Laguna Blanca and probably every elite private school. Clearly there is great room for improvement! The education you received at Laguna Blanca (current full-price tuition: $394K for 13 years) and USC (current full-price tuition: $232K for 4 years) has served you well, since most people would not be able to craft such a well done piece.

  63. Great article. I see several angry white men posting here losing their hat – and it’s quite obvious they have no understanding of white privilege or institutional racism. They seem to be defending the practice rather than understanding it’s existence.

  64. SACJON – it’s a PRIVATE school. It’s inherently more expensive and exclusionary (based on wealth, not race) than public schools. There’s no such thing as experiential equality.
    Most kids are d**ks unless their parents have been very intentional about teaching them kindness towards others and disciplining them otherwise. Unfortunately, not explicitly teaching them kindness will rear its ugly head as bullying and non-inclusivness for a myriad of reasons, not the least of which is socioeconomics, regardless of parental intention or bias. If you all don’t think the Latinos majority in SB public schools give white minorities a hard time you are sorely mistaken.
    11:34 AM you are flat out wrong.

  65. Mattyboy – so let’s not bother working toward racial equality in private schools, nice. And no, just because Latinos are the majority in public schools doesn’t mean we’ve reached racial equality. Numbers mean nothing when people of color are still treated differently. I grew up in SB public schools and yeah, got the occasional “white boy” or “cracker” but I was able to easily attend the college of my choice, never had to fear of being disproportionately targeted by police, etc etc. Your way of thinking is lazy and archaic. It’s truly sad that you are unable of even attempting to consider and understand the difficulties faced by people of color, even in SB. Sad.

  66. I take issue with a lot of what Karinna has to say. And I find it unfortunate that kids this age feel that they must make ‘demands,’ rather than suggestions. It’s pretty telling. If you want to help make things better, then contact the school directly and privately and tell them how you feel. Did she do that? I doubt it. I wonder if she realizes that if the school hires a Director of Diversity it would cost at least $100,000 per year and that eliminates money for 2 or 3 full scholarships. As an alumnus who attended Laguna and one who has supported the school financially for more than 40 years, I can tell you that a significant portion of charitable dollars raised by the school go toward financial assistance for those that need it. It is only recently that schools are realizing that they also need to commit some monies for financial aid kids for other expenses, like travel and ski trips so that they can feel included. But this is happening! Maybe not in 2013, but it’s happening now. Also, those terrible 1% families she references — they contribute probably 80% of the monies raised by the school to keep it going and to build new buildings, etc. They are not required to give money — they do so because they care about their kids and their community. As somebody else stated, this is a private school. Those of us who send our kids to private school still pay taxes to support public schools, by the way!

  67. SACJON – you make a lot of assumptions and infer a lot of bias in my posts that simply is not there. I didn’t say anything about not making progress towards racial equality. I didn’t say a Latino majority equaled racial equality. When you grew up in Santa Barbara public schools it was probably quite a bit different than it is now. You completely avoided my points about this public letter about a private school having nothing to do with race and everything to do with socioeconomic status.

  68. @Thomas John, not readers, just commenters. And let’s be honest, it’s probably 4 angry white dudes using multiple accounts commenting over and over again. They do not speak for the entirety of the readership here as most of us are burned out arguing with old white people who cannot comprehend their own privilege because they didn’t get ice cream once as a child. But with that, there are a lot of white people in santa Barbara who are in denial that racism exists here or even that it is systemic.

  69. “Life is not fair” – “there’s no more racism” – “they should be happy with what they have” – “some Latinos teased me for my skin color” – yadda yadda yadda…… If you outright refuse to even consider the fact that you have no idea how much more difficult life is for a person of color, you’re no better than a klansman (or woman). Y’all should be ashamed.

  70. “MONTECITOJOE” – first of all, great name….. Secondly (and more importantly), she is making “demands” because minorities have been quietly asking for equal rights for generations. It’s 2020 for f*(*(# sake. We need to change. Why should she quietly and “privately” tell the school how she feels? Forcing people like you to confront the uncomfortable realities of the situation is EXACTLY what should be happening. FACE IT. Face your ignorance and resistance toward equality. It’s pretty ugly, ain’t it Joe?

  71. Because the definition of racism is to believe that your race is better than others.
    For all the years that we were there, that was never promoted by the teachers, the headmaster, the admissions department.
    Just because someone doesn’t accept a person who is not their race to their school does not make them racist.

  72. I went to LBS in the 60s, The school’s idea of cultural diversity at that time was letting in someone who didn’t live in Hope Ranch or Montecito. To the best of my recollection there were no minority students at all. Many years later I attended a volleyball game at Laguna where a group of boys taunted a player on my daughter’s team who was of Japanese ancestry using culturally-abusive language. It was an embarrassing display. I am heartened by Sundown’s updates on the School. All of us, as we mature, need to embrace change.
    I congratulate Ms. Carrillo on her achievements and thank her for her comments.

  73. We have a social responsibility to hold our friends, families and communities accountable by holding up a mirror to them. What looks back isn’t pretty. Karinna’s comments need to be taken in a constructive rather than a destructive light. Yet the mirror reflects some ugly comments demanding that Karinna, and all BIPOC, be grateful, quiet, complacent, and to feel lucky to have seat at the table, a seat that many imply could/should/would have gone to a person who would have “fit in” better. A graceful response by Laguna Blanca could simply have acknowledged the painful experiences on campus for students like Karinna, and promised to eradicate continuing conditions that make stories like hers still possible. Instead, they patronize by calling her open letter “powerful.” For starters, elite schools must stop using BIPOC students as tokens in glossy brochures. They should pledge not to expect that BIPOC will teach fellow students diversity lessons at their own painful expense. BIPOC are shouldered with teaching race lessons to peers in how they respond to bias, bullying and ignorant comments by peers, teachers and parents. These experiences leave scars that sometimes need to be picked at—especially now. Karinna got into her undergrad and graduate elite schools on her own merit, and despite her K-12 education. LB is not an Ivy League feeder, which is why LB doesn’t have the courage to applaud Karinna’s strong voice, activism and advocacy. The lesson in the mirror is lost on LB. They make an empty pledge to prioritize equity–as followers and not leaders.

  74. Yeah, don’t use your education to improve things for the people coming after you. Keeping the status quo is what this nation is all about. We should go back to 1776 where only white property owners could vote. 7-11 was wrong, change is not good. Personally, I applaud this ex-student for publishing this and exposing herself to the criticism from people like you.

  75. Unlike the public schools in our district, at Laguna, we had to pay for everything–our books, our lunch, and our very expensive, navy blue, white, and red uniforms? Guess what dear, public school students have to pay for their supplies, lunches, their clothes! If you are low income, you do get free lunch and get to take the bus to whatever school you wanted to attend. I would have loved a scholarship to LBS for my children. Instead they went to a bilingual school in a neighborhood we could afford. I wanted them to attend school across town, but would have to drive them to school, which I could manage. I’d also have to pick them up in the middle of the afternoon. I’d do that, but guess what I was a working mom. Mine got a lousy education. Being white they were discriminated against by the other students and majority of the staff. Get a clue, its a private, not public school. I don’t see anything about minority students with families who could afford the tuition, being denied entry. Your father could have sent you to anyone of the public schools, but he cared enough to take that job and get you a better education than most in town get. Be grateful for what you received. There is racism out there, including from you, yes you. Stop looking for it everywhere and you’ll be a happier person.

  76. You missed the point. This isn’t about the quality of SBCC education, it’s that the counselor told every other student to aim for ivy leagues while because of her finances and ethnicity (not intellect) she was told community college. She wasn’t even offered scholarship options to assist with finances. That is the whole point.

  77. @TJTom – People of color have been politely asking for equal rights for decades now and nothing has happened. I’m fine if they’re not only demanding action but taking action. As a white person, we haven’t been listening, instead we’ve been criticizing. If you’re only focus is the way she worded something instead of what the words actually mean, you need to take break and reflect.

  78. Hello “dear” sbdme, you missed the point of the entire letter. I’m sure Karinna would have “loved” to not be judged for her heritage and ethnicity and not treated differently because of it, but she’s not afforded such thing. And STOP with the whole racism goes both ways argument. That is NOT A THING. I repeat, it’s not a thing. Read it again, challenge your own anger and white privilege, and think before commenting. Have a great day!

  79. 140 comments, 29 of those deleted, ARGUING over whether or not people of color should be given equal rights in this day and age in OUR community. That there is such a strong debate here is disgusting and despicable. What is it that you people (those who oppose her demands for equal rights) find so offensive about this? Why should people of color still be treated differently? Why do you oppose efforts to bring equality to our system? Why?

  80. 10:22 You may find others viewpoints as “disgusting and despicable” and would like nothing more than to silence any opinion that does not conform your world view. Thank god we live in a country where people have the right to freedom of speech regardless of how offensive to some.

  81. COOLIO – Yeah, you didn’t read my post, did you? I ASKED, 4 times, for your opinion. Did you read the last FOUR sentences asking for your opinion? I am not trying to silence anything, I am asking why you feel this way. Why didn’t you answer my questions?

  82. But she flat out says “Laguna didn’t see race, they didn’t see class.” She doesn’t want things to be equal. She wanted to be treated differently then everyone else…she wanted extra things and free things that other people didn’t get. She didn’t want equal rights…she wanted more than everyone else.

  83. DUKE – comprehension. Your quote does not indicate her feeling that there was no racism, far from it. It was written in the context of the school IGNORING the challenges of lower class non-white students. That’s actually the whole point of her demands. She wants the school to acknowledge and provide moral and some financial assistance to non-white students who don’t come from money. What’s wrong with that? What’s wrong with wanting the obvious disparities to be addressed? Why should non-whites of little means not have the same access to resources as needed?

  84. Matty – those “racial demands” call for resources to help make the education experience equal for those non-white students coming from poor backgrounds who don’t have the same chances as white students. By dismissing these, you are really just supporting the idea that there is no difference in treatment, and that is just not true.

  85. “provide some financial assistance”??? She literally was on a full scholarship…isn’t that the definition of “financial assistance”? And what disparities does she want addressed when she criticized the school for not having disparities? She was obviously given a great education that set her on a path to USC and Columbia but there is no acknowledgement of that. And the swipe at SBCC is wrong…SBCC is awesome and a great path for many students…disparaging that is elitist at best…

  86. Great piece. Our white-washed, scared-to-talk-about racism community of SB needs to hear things like this. those who comment in disgust, anger, prove the point you are trying to make. Yes, even in our great little town, racism runs wild. Keep the conversation going, Speak Up. BLM.

  87. MATTYBOY: socioeconomics apply to all races, but in vastly different and concerning ways. The argument that “some” (read: very very very few) white people are socioeconomic ally disadvantaged is tired and really miss the point.

  88. Perhaps in the context of a public school, but Laguna Blanca prides itself on listing and celebrating each and every students school acceptance…and they helped her get into (and a scholarship to) USC. So perhaps if she had opened this up as a broader conversation than I could get behind it, but it comes across as quite angry and entitled.

  89. DUKE – she isn’t asking for more money for herself. She is asking for money to be directed to resources for “BIPOC and low-income students.” Did you even read this? She is not asking for free tuition, or even direct scholarships, she is asking for some of the schools MILLIONS of $$ to be directed to helping non-whites AND WHITE students from low-income families. Why are you upset about this? You’re not even reading or thinking, you’re just furiously crying foul because she dares to demand racial equality.

  90. Oh please, comparing SB schoolyard discrimation of your white children to the lifetime of racism and discrimation that BIPOC experience is pretty pathetic and extremely self-centered. Bet you’re thrilled your kids are done with that part of their lives but guess what? BIPOC never escape it, this is their life and they have no choice!! In part due to small-minded attitudes like your comment projects.

  91. MATT5154 – Yep, look how the majority of comments here oppose any efforts to move toward racial equality. Many think they’re “not racist,” but by vehemently opposing any change toward this goal, they’re showing their true colors. Refusing to even consider the feelings of a whole group of people is basically, well….. racist.

  92. It doesn’t seem right to criticize an institution that helped you and set you on a path for life because they didn’t do extra things above and beyond what everyone else (and everyone else was paying) received. I get that we’re in a time and place where seemingly everything is a race issue, but this simply strikes me as a young person who is a bit clueless lashing out. Perhaps as someone who left with quite a few SBCC transferable credits I find the disparagement of our fine little CC a bit annoying. So perhaps I am taking her letter in the wrong way and she means well…but it was written from a perspective of such entitlement that I struggle to get past the verbiage.

  93. DUKE – It is refreshing to read your willingness to at least try to empathize. Perhaps her words were not written in a way that makes you comfortable, and that’s ok. Her message is that a school like this should have more resources (NOTE: resources do not mean “free money” as many here think) for people of color. The tone may be a bit hard to swallow for those who are on the fence, but message is clear: there were no resources or personnel while she attended that addressed and dealt with the different treatment of white and non-white students. She is asking (yeah, “demanding” may be much) that for FUTURE students, they have more resources available. Again, resources does not only equal money. Minority personnel, task forces to understand the issue of racial disparity, etc. All she wants is for future students to be treated and dealt with the same as their rich, white counterparts. If you can just understand that, then it is a great start and hopefully others can finally open up to a little empathy. Thank you.

  94. 1. Hire Black, Indigenous, and POC (BIPOC) educators
    The recent Head of Upper School was a black woman. The head of the Middle school was a homosexual Chinese man. They were great leaders for LBS. The front office of the Lower School is an amazingly sweet black woman. Not to mention Asian and Mexican faculty. I think that’s pretty diverse.
    My siblings and I typically had what Sears had in stock. We arrived to campus with the best our family could afford
    There is a used/recycle uniform program that makes NICE skirts polos trousers with the school emblem only $5!
    There is so much financial aid support and tutoring support for students of all ethnicities it’s amazing.
    I am sorry Karrina went through this and felt this way. But she should look into the current status of the school before demanding change. The school must have changed a lot since she attended because the stories she tells of and demands she requests does not sound like the Laguna it is now. The school is greatly supportive and equal especially compared to other private schools! It is a great education as well as community. I am upset she is making this great school sound so bad.

  95. I find some of the very bold and righteous comments frustrating when they are hidden behind online usernames. I invite all of you that freely commented behind the protection of a username to email me directly: theresaonthego@yahoo.com. I will add you to an invite list for us to have a brave, face to face, dialogue about this. I will coordinate it and look forward to your willingness to discuss and listen. All invited to email me.

  96. TLH805 – Thank you! I’m thinking maybe we have a registry for all the brave bigots and “unintentional racists” (those who refuse to even consider that BIPOC are treated disparately) to sign their real names so we all know who to avoid when shopping around for goods and services. If you’re so confident that your archaic viewpoints are correct, then you should have no problem proclaiming yourself to the community so we can chose what businesses/professions to support or avoid.

  97. Right. I’m white. I grew up in Payless shoes. I felt an extreme amount of insecurity about it when some of my classmates had an endless assortment of Adidas and Pumas (which were the cool sneakers at the time). They were also wearing jeans that unbelievably cost something like $150 in the late ’90s. I had $15 pants from Wet Seal. It had nothing to do with race. My own father has a lot of shameful memories of having to wear shoes with holes in the ’50s and ’60s. He was the son of a guy who worked at a gas station. Racism is real, but not everything unpleasant that is experienced is the result of racism. In fact, many more experiences boil down to class dynamics. And many experiences of shame, insecurity, feeling “looked over” etc. are in fact universally experienced, even by those we might think of as “privileged.” I find much of the current language extremely divisive, myopic, and unlikely to bring people together – more likely to drive them apart.

  98. Mattyboy – if you can’t comprehend the racial aspects of this letter (yes, without the demands) then you’re not as astute as you think. It’s the lack of resources (not money, you need to stop obsessing with money) for minority students that is the root of this. Why else would her demands be for such resources? She was treated differently and lesser due to the lack of understanding and available mentors/counselors, etc for her situation. It’s sad to see you try so hard to deny her point of view.

  99. COASTWATCH Why are you shaming parents for wanting the best for their children?
    It’s not driven by politics or race but by cold hard reality. Average school or under-performing school, am I missing something from the parenting manual?

  100. Regarding the open letter: I had a son who went to Laguna Blanca and yes it was a huge sacrifice for our working family to have him get such a great education but well worth the sacrifice. At that time, a good part of the Gala proceeds went to provide an education (scholarships) for students like YOU. Many of us parents worked long hours on the Gala to pay for YOUR education and I am amazed that the things you remember are the inequity moments, I am so sadden that education that your father sacrificed for (the education in the tune of over $500,000 to your family), that other parents donated for, is so unappreciated by you and that you feel, after your USC & Columbia education, it is appropriate to slap the hands that reached into our pockets to have you & your family as welcomed part of this amazing school community.
    Again, it saddens and infuriates me that your take away from 13 years of a fine education, with fine people, that got you Merit Scholarships to 2 of the finest private universities in the country is so negative that you have gone to KEYT and Edhat, why not just go to Laguna Blanca with your suggestions if you really wanted to change things.

  101. Thank you, as a parent of a Laguna student in the past I am so offended after I gave so much of my time, talent and hard earned funds to enrich the Laguna Blanca community for ALL the children. She should have written this letter to the Board & Head Master, not EdHat and KEYT.

  102. What an amazing story of perseverance.
    A father makes a decision to take a job so he can give his children and amazing education.
    A student endures the difficulties of life and perseveres for 13 years to graduate and go on to a 1% college and Master’s program.
    A small school, unprodded by government regulations, does what it can to help the children of one of its employees and others in the community who cannot afford the tuition.
    Along the way the school realizes that it can do even more for the members of its community.
    Where else can perseverance be so rewarded ?
    Where else can an alumna fearlessly exercise her right to criticize those who played such a big role in allowing her to reach for the stars and attain her goals.
    There are few places on earth where this amazing story could have taken place.

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